New Years Resolutions

I've been going back and forth on whether or not I want to post my resolution for the new year, as well as whether or not I should make them in the first place. I tend to make goals like "lose 15 pounds". When you've weight the same amount since Senior year of high school that's a pretty tricky goal to attain. However, I have decided to not make any weight loss goals this year, I have also noticed how if I write something for all to read I feel more accountable for it. So, here goes: my resolutions.

1. Be nicer- To this most people have responded "but you're nice already." Yes, to you I am nice, but to Charlie I am sometimes downright mean. This makes me sad to say, but it's true. I tend to hold things inside until I get home and then, for lack of a better word, explode, usually in front of Charlie. I suspect this is because I am comfortable with him and can't seem to keep my inner jerk contained when I am upset about something. In testing this resolution out for the last 4 days I have been quite surprised with how much better I feel and also with how easy it is to just keep my mouth shut if I don't have anything good to say. So my biggest goal in 2011 is to be nice to myself and to Charlie. It is after all the year we're getting married so I figured I should start off 2011 and our marriage on the right foot. 
                                                      ....in regards to the wedding...

2. To not act like Veruca Salt prior to or during the wedding. Once someone told me I acted like her and I was moderately horrified and always wondered if he was joking. I hope to keep my cool and not turn into a Bridezilla or a spoiled rotten 9-year-old on July 16th.

Although, it would be really fun to quote her in some cases, "I want a ball, I want a party, Pink macaroons and a million balloons and performing baboons and ...Give it to me Now!" Sorry, I couldn't resist, but I will come wedding time.

3. Sew more clothes for myself- I have yards upon yards of fabric stashed in corners of my apartment waiting for me to make them into articles of clothing. I should just do it already. Here is a short list of items I want to make (so I will stick to my guns):

• Pheasant top- blue flower print.
• Wool skirt- yet to be purchased wool fabric
• Summer dress- green jersey fabric purchased at MOOD last January (see what I mean!!)
• Sweatshirt- purple jersey I found for $1.50 a yard!
• Summer skirt- blue patterned jersey print (also from MOOD, I have a problem)

4. Waste less time- I seem to waste a lot of time doing practically nothing. Most of the time I swear I am in some soft of daze. For example, today I got home from running at 4:30 and then all of a sudden I was still in my running clothes sitting on the floor staring at the computer and it was 5:30. Geeze! What was I doing for that hour? I have no idea! That should stop (ahem) be minimized.

5. Make friends- I've been living here for 5 months and I have no friends. Sad but true. I keep making excuses like; "no one my age lives in this town"or "no one who is my age in this town has the same goals or interests as me." In reality I just don't know where to look for friends. I've been in school for the last 18 years of my life. For about 12 of those years I was with people I had known my whole life. In college I made friends with people on the team with me, we shared the same sport. In graduate school I shared the same passion and goals with all of my friends. Here it's just harder. I work part time at two schools, which doesn't seem like enough face time to get to know people. Heck, it's January and I still don't know everyone's names! Also, as I have mentioned, the people I work with are older. I can't tell you how many times people have said; "My granddaughter is your age!" Part of me wants to say; "That's nice, does she want to be my friend?" I am not exactly sure where to look for friends around here but I am determined to find at least one.

Those are my resolutions, what are yours?

Lauren